Well, I did it! I survived the holidays without my husband. I decorated, wrapped the presents, made the fudge and spread the cheer. It wasn’t always easy or fun, but it also wasn’t as bad as I made it out to be. Maybe it’s because this is our third deployment in as many years instead of our first. Maybe it’s because I have family and friends close by to pick me up when I feel a bit sad. Maybe it’s because I have never been busier than I am right now, professionally or personally. Maybe it’s because I refused to allow myself to be a Grade A Grinch all season long.
Honestly, it’s probably all of the above. Despite missing A so much my heart hurt, I still found many moments of joy this holiday season.
I found joy in my wrapping game being the best it’s been in years, even on dog toys. I scored big time at the Target Dollar Spot: all of my tags, ribbon and most of my wrapping paper for less than $25. Plus they all went together which is a huge win in my book!
I found joy in starting new traditions that I hope to carry on for many years to come, like the Christmas Eve cookie decorating party. I ate way too much frosting and will likely find sprinkles for the next 3 months, but it was so much fun. My favorite cookie had to be the snowflake, although the gingerbread man was a close second.
I found joy in Hallmark movies, fluffy blankets and oodles of puppy snuggles. B and Ruger have kept me laughing over the past few weeks with their shenanigans and quirky personalities.
I found joy in traveling to Nashville for New Years and watching these two get married. They were so incredibly happy on their big day and that was contagious. I was so lucky to be a part of their special day.
Would I want to make the holidays without my husband a regular thing? Certainly not. But this deployment has taught me that if you’re willing, you can find joy even during hard times. How did you find joy during the holidays?